I want a horse.
I have wanted a horse of my own for as long as I can remember. I don’t know where it started. Maybe it was the Prince Charming thing. Maybe it is my love for animals. Or my love of nature and open spaces.
But I’m not the only one. My kids, especially my daughter, loves horses. So do most little girls.
As I was walking a gravel road in the country with God this morning, a beautiful chestnut mare came to the fence to greet me. As I approached her for a brief conversation in the cool morning air, my thoughts turned to my desire for open space and a horse of my own.
As I walked away from my new friend, I asked Him about that desire that I have had and what I was searching for.
Freedom to ride into the sunrise and escape my cares?
The power and security of a powerful mount?
The comfort of the companionship of these large creatures?
The isolation and solitude of living surrounded by an uncluttered expanse of land?
Then my thoughts turned to mucking stalls, vet bills, training, shoeing and providing for my proposed horse.
As I walked, the Creator of the universe tenderly spoke to my soul. He created the beautiful chestnut mare and her large eyes, powerful limbs, strong back, and legs that can cover huge expanses of territory almost effortlessly.
And He created the desires of my heart. Do I need to wait to satisfy theses needs until the unlikely day that my urban husband decides to become a rancher and moves our family to a remote location and buys me a horse? As I walk and ponder the why’s of my long standing desire, I realize that my Lord is much more capable of meeting those needs than the chestnut mare I just met.
She, for all her beauty and power, can never take me far enough to escape the cares and struggles of my life.
She is a strong creature, yet she is not immune from the struggles of physical health and needs any more than I am.
She can provide the security of her physical presence, but she can’t know my heart.
Living closer to nature and further from people provides physical space, but isolation creates its own set of challenges.
Why is it that my heart searches for security, freedom, and peace from a created being when I have full access to all of those things and more through the Creator Himself? He created me with these desires in my heart and He softly reminded me this morning that only He can fully meet these needs. As wonderful as the chestnut mare is and as enticing as the things she represents are in my mind, she is a mere shadow of her Creator. In her own way this morning, she pointed me to Him. And in the end, I think that really is her job.
Well done, beautiful mare, well done.
For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood through what has been made, so that they are without excuse.
Originally published April 19, 2013